Great Quotes

Found another great quote today:

"Being single doesn't mean we're weak. It means we're strong enough to wait for what we deserves."

Thanks @girlsdeals

Quotes to Live By

This is another great quote brought to you by @ihatequotes

"Sometimes I expect more from others because I would be willing to do that much for them."

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I was at the So You Think You Can Dance tour on Tuesday night and during this number, I realized that the lyrics reminded me of how I felt in the relationship with John.

I think we can all identfy with a relationship making you feel this way. Just keep on trucking and find the next one!

Great Performance, Great Lyrics....

Fool of Me
Me'Shell Ndegéocello



Full Lyrics:

I remember when you filled my heart with joy
was I blind to the truth, just there to fill the space?
cause now, you have no interest in anything that I have to say
and I've allowed you to make me feel
(I feel so dumb)
what kind of fool am I?
you so easily set me aside

CHORUS
you made a fool of me
tell me why
you say that you don't care, but
we made love, tell me why
you made a fool of me
you made a fool of me

I want to kiss you
does she want you with the pain that I do?
I can smell you in my dreams
and now that we're face to face, you won't look me in the eye
no time, no friendship, no love
you say don't touch you
I can't touch you no more
can't touch you anymore, anymore

CHORUS
you made a fool of me
tell me why, tell me why
you say that you don't care, but
we made love, tell me why
you made a fool of me
tell me why
you made a fool of me
tell me why
(tell me why

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Lyrics courtesy of Smart Lyrics

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I was just talking to a friend about a guy she dated (another wolf in sheep's clothing) and he made her feel like she wasn't good enough. At least that is what she is telling me...

I think that she is making herself feel not good enough. She has it all, she just has to let herself see that. And let's not forget that really these guys were the ones who were not good enough for us!

Freckles
Natasha Bedingfield



Full Lyrics:

I used to care so much about what others think about
Almost didn't have a thought of my own
The slightest remark would make me embark
On the journey of self doubt
But that was a while ago
This girl has got stronger
If I knew then what I know now
I would have told myself don't worry any longer it's OK

[Chorus:]
'cause a face without freckles is like a sky without stars
Why waste a second not loving who you are
Those little imperfections make you beautiful, lovable, valuable,
They show your personality inside your heart
Reflecting who you are

Who you are
Who you are
Who you are

I wondered if I could trade my body with somebody else in magazines
Would the whole world fall at my feet?
I felt unworthy and would blame my failures on the ugliness I could see
When the mirror looked at me
Sometimes I still feel like the little girl who doesn't belong in her own world
But I'm getting better
And I'm reminding myself

[Chorus]

Reflecting who you are
Reflecting who you are
Hmmm
Whoooooo whoa hmmmm oooooo

[Chorus]

Reflecting who you are

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Lyrics from AZ Lyrics

Status Update

While I realize you are a total asshole...

I am more mad at myself for not seeing the person you really are and allowing myself to fall in love with the person I thought you were...

I guess love really is blind.

Thankfully I finally opened my eyes.

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Having an Eric Clapton morning and 'Wonderful Tonight' came on. This is how I want my man to feel about me. What a fantastic song.

If you have not read 'Wonderful Tonight: George Harrison, Eric Clapton and Me' by Pattie Boyd, you need to pick it up. Has the story of how Wonderful Tonight was written among many other Harrison and Clapton favorites!



Full Lyrics:

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."

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Lyrics courtesy of AZ Lyrics

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All day at the office I have my iTunes on shuffle so that it can loop spontaneously through the 16k songs I have. Every now and then, a lyric will jump out at me and make me think of what I am going to or I will relate it to how I am feeling. This just happened...

One More Girl
The Wreckers



Full Lyrics:

I took off my iron smile babe
Cause I felt it weighed me down
tomorrow when the world wakes up I
'll be in another town

You don't know what you want
at this moment could be me
You move your hand across my knee
turn me into some novelty

(Chorus)
I guess I'm one more girl on the stage
Just one more ass that got stuffed in some jeans
It's one more day that you don't find true love
because you don't know what it means
yeah, yeah

Did you ever take the time to
think about who I might be?
Where I've been, what I'm thinking
who I love what I've seen

yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
oh yeah

One more car out on the road there
you might pass on your way home
Someone's sister, someones wife or
just some bitch who's probably got no life.

Yes I'm

(chorus)
one more girl on the stage,
just one more ass that got stuffed in some jeans.
And it's one more day that you don't find true love
because you don't know what it means yeah.

One day we'll be a pile of ashes
For the rest of time it passes
So take your hand off my knee
Do you know what it means to be

(chorus)
one more girl on the stage,
just one more ass that got stuffed in some jeans.
And it's one more day that you don't find true love
because you don't know what it means yeah.

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Lyrics from Cowboy Lyrics

Quotes to live by...

Thanks to one of my favorite twitter artists @ihatequotes retweeting @girlsdeals I have found another great place for quotes!

Here are the gems from today:

"My biggest mistake wasn't falling for you, it was thinking you'd fallen for me too."

"The best revenge you could ever do to the person who broke your heart, is to just let them see that you're happy without them."

"I don't want to live my life alone, but I also won't settle for someone who makes me feel like I'm alone when I'm with them."

"If a man doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. If he thinks he wants you, nothing can make him stay away."

"Slow to trust but quick to love, push too hard and give too much. I'm not saying I'm perfect but I promise I'm worth it."

And just because he makes me happy....



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Quotes courtesy of @girlsdeals

Yep, I am ANGRY

Finally realizing how angry I am - angry at myself for allowing him to treat me that way and at him for treating me that way...

I think for so long I didn't want to be wrong about what type of guy you really are, but you know - you are just a wolf in sheep's clothing. The fact that you have deluded yourself to think anything different just goes to show how fucked up you really are.

What a waste of my time and energy. I wish I had the self esteem when we were first dating to stick by my original thought that you weren't good enough if you flubbed NYE. Which you did. Especially after you were the one who asked what we were doing. I just don't understand how you could treat me the way you did when we were together and have NO feelings.

Thankfully I have seen the light and I am working on moving past it. I really hope I can move past the anger I have at myself for being such an idiot. I figure the first step is admitting it.

First step - check.

For the record, I totally feel like Richard Gere in the bathtub Pretty Woman style...

Time For a Change

My behavior this weekend really disappointed myself but more importantly has potentially done some irreversable damage to a very important relationship in my life. Waking up on Sunday and feeling the way I did, I realized it was time to really make that change.

I obviously have many unresolved feelings from the whole John 'relationship' that I really haven't allowed myself to explore or admit are there. There is a lot of anger hidden right underneath the surface and instead of dealing with it in a productive way and trying to work past it, I lashed out at one of my best friends this weekend with ridiculous, drunken behavior. The worst part is I have NO idea of what I said but I know I have had a night like this before and it was NOT pretty.

Now I was completely hormonal, but that is no excuse to act the way I did and to make the bad decisions that I made. All I know is that it is time to make a change to some of the destructive behavior I have been allowing myself to engage in. No more drinking at home by myself. Creating a limit to what I drink when out watching football or hanging out with friends. Finally making the therapy appointment that I so badly need and getting my butt back to working out.

I have been wanting to make a positive change and I hate that it has taken me hitting close to rock bottom to actually be committed to making the change.

Hopefully my friend will be able to forgive me and we will be able to work past this episode. I can only pray that the strong bond that we have forged over the last 5 years will help to ensure this happens.

Thankfully I just got an email and my friend accepted my apology!!!!

Currently Listening To...

Brand New Day - Joshua Radin

I know I haven't had a status update in a few weeks, but just know this song is where I am leaning. I hope to get an update on here today or tonight!



Full Lyrics:
Some kind of magic
Happens late at night
When the moon smiles down at me
And bathes me in its light.

I fell asleep beneath you
In the tall blades of grass.
When I woke the world was new.
I never had to ask.

It's a brand new day.
The sun is shinning.
It's a brand new day.
For the first time in such a long, long time
I know I'll be okay.

Most kind of stories
Save the best part for last.
And most stories have a hero who finds
You make your past your past.
Yeah, you make your past your past.

It's a brand new day.
The sun is shinning.
It's a brand new day.
For the first time in such a long, long time
I know I'll be okay.

This cycle never ends.
Gotta fall in order to mend.

It's a brand new day.
It's a brand new day.
For the first time in such a long, long time
I know I'll be okay.

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Lyrics from AZ Lyrics

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Why Georgia Why
John Mayer

When I lived in California, I loved listening to this song. There was something about it that made me think of home. Everytime I heard the first line, I was transported there....



I am driving up 85 in the
Kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom
4 more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
And leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
Wood in places to make it feel like home
But all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
Or just the stirring in my soul

Either way I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on
But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
That's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
Still "everything happens for a reason"
Is no reason not to ask myself

If I am living it right
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?

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Lyrics from AZ Lyrics