Shoe Porn

I found these bad boys at Bloomies for about $59 at Mall of America. Mine are tan but the gray ones are hot too!



You can find them at Zappos.

Great Quotes

Hey blog readers! I know I have been away for a few days and I promise to post some updates shortly. In the meantime, please enjoy this great status update my friend Abby left on her facebook page. I think it is something that we should all live by!

"I might not be someone's first choice, but I am a great choice. I may not be rich but I am valuable. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, because I'm good at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past, but I am proud of who I am today. I may not be perfect but I don't need to be. Take me as I am, or watch me as I walk away."

Have a fantastic Wednesday!

A Silent Day at the Office

It has been a little sad not hearing the ding and receiving a fun text from John. However, I know this is the right thing. And I am happier for getting him out of my life. He isn't a bad guy, just obviously not the right one for me.

Retail Therapy

I was lucky to have had a half day at work planned on Friday and then an afternoon of shopping with my mom. The reatil therapy was a great thing for me and it made me feel a sense of confidence about my body too.

I have recently lost some weight and while I knew I had, I didn't know how much better things would fit me when I went to get some new clothes.  There were times I couldn't believe how tiny I looked compared with how I was a year ago.  Not only did it give me confidence that I think will translate great going forward, it gave me the desire to head back to the gym and start hitting it hard again.  I have been slack due to allowing myself to be disappointed and unhappy with a relationship.  No longer peeps! 

Since I believe that there isn't nothing that can't be fixed by finding a great pair of shoes, I will leave you with a little shoe porn....

I found this great pair of DKNY shows for under $30.  What a steal since they are still $78 on Zappos! 


I also got these amazing Enzo's for about $18 - they are on Zappos for $71.53.  Loving the good bargins that they had a Macys Friday! 



I also got another pair of cute Steve Madden wedges that I wore out last night with my Will -Jordan. 

I can't wait to start getting out and about town in all of my new duds.  It really seemed like I was meant to be shopping on Friday and I was long overdue for some new clothes.  Now I have a goal to lose about 20 more lbs and I am going to allow myself to buy some designer jeans. 

Onward and Upward! 

It's a New Day, but it still hurts...

So I finally did it, I think I might have known how Custer felt...

Last night I decided that I was going to be disappointed for the last time. All of his selfishness is no longer my problem. How did I allow myself to look past all of the bad things about this man? Why did I allow myself to think I was in love with someone who clearly isn't the right fit for me?

Doesn't mean that it hurts any less today though.

It was nice to wake up and know that something was gone from my life that had been making me miserable more than it was being enjoyable. That said, when it was enjoyable, it was damn enjoyable.

Now I know I just need to move forward and I can't allow myself to go backwards again. I didn't realize how much of my self respect I would gain back by uttering these 2 simple words: Get Out.

I even deleted our Streak for the Cash group. Next up is the phone number and the texts, eventually the email. I gave him back everything that he ever gave to me, no sense in having it around the house to remind me.

Fingers crossed I meet a good man that realizes what he has in front of him.

Status Update

It is very hard to let go of something you think you want so badly. When I am not around him, I think rationally and realize that the situation isn't good enough for me. I want more. Then I make the mistake and see him, there is too much fun and chemistry. I fall back into the trap, time to take control and just say no.

I saw this from @ihatequotes on Twitter this morning:

"The good side of Goodbye is I can start a new beginning, and create a better ending. Stay positive!"

And I think this is how I need to start looking at my situation. Saying goodbye is going to suck for a bit but in the long run, I do want a better ending. Not only do I want it, I deserve it.

I am going to have to be strong, but I can do it.

Quotes To Live By

If someone wants to be in your life, they will work to be a part of it. So don’t bother saving a spot for someone who won’t...

If things are meant to happen, it will happen. Just be happy and expect less so that in the end, you'll be able to stand again...

Relationship is about taking risks. Risk of missing and being missed, and risk of hurting and being hurt...

I forgive myself and understand that I'm the only one who's responsible for every situation in my life....

Relationships or friendships are worth fighting for, but not if I am the only one fighting...

Like these quotes? Follow @ihatequotes on twitter!

Quotes To Live By

One of my FB friends posted this today - I think it is a great sentiment...

"There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living."

Currently Listening To...

Who Says
Selena Gomez & The Scene

Don't judge, I really like the song. Great message...



I wouldn't wanna be anybody else
hey

[Verse 1]
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn’t good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough?
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

[Verse 2:]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

[Bridge:]
Who says you’re not star potential?
Who says you’re not presidential?
Who says you can’t be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test?
Who says you can’t be the best?
Who said, who said?
Won’t you tell me who said that?
Yeah, who said?

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect? (Yeah)
Who says you're not worth it? (Yeah yeah)
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'? (Ooooh)
Trust me, that's the price of beauty (Hey yeah, beauty)
Who says you're not pretty? (Who said?)
Who says you're not beautiful? (I'm just beautiful me)
Who says?

Who says, Who says, you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?

[Chorus:]
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?

Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, (yeah) that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty? (Who says you're not beautiful?)
Who says?

Video from You Tube

Lyrics from AZ Lyrics

Currently Listening To...

Stay
Sugarland



Full Lyrics:

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see
She can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear
To love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don't you stay
I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
You can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay, yeah

Video from You Tube

Lyrics from AZ Lyrics

Quotes to live by

It's not about who hurt and broke me down, it's about who was always there and made me smile again.

Currently Listening To...

Wiser Time by The Black Crowes



Full Lyrics:

No time left now for shame
Horizon behind me, no more pain
Windswept stars blink and smile
Another song, another mile
You read the line every time
Ask me about crime in my mind
Ask me why another read song
Funny but I bet you never left home
[Chorus:]
On a good day, I know it's not every day
We can part the sea
And on a bad day, I know it's not every day
Glory beyond our reach
14 Seconds until sunrise
Tired but wiser for the time
Lightning 30 miles away
Three thousand more in two days
[Chorus]

Video courtesy of You Tube

Lyrics courtesy of Sing 365

Great Article!

Just found this amazing article at HelloGiggles.com:

http://hellogiggles.com/8-steps-to-beat-the-break-up-blues

Now that I am about to be Johnless once more, I think it is going to become my breakup bible. The best thing is that I have slowly been getting rid of the excess and was already planning on doing a home makeover on Sunday.

I was doing pretty well last time with these steps until you got to 5 and 6. It is definitely in my best interest to make sure he is completely out of my life. That is going to be the only way I will really move on and can stop having the delusions he is going to realize what he let go. What a loser.

Currently Listening To...

Everybody by Keith Urban



Full Lyrics:

So here you are now, nowhere to turn
It's just the same old yesterday
And you made a promise to yourself
That you were never gonna be this way
And the only thing that you've ever known is to run
So you keep on driving faster into the sun

Cause everybody needs somebody sometimes
Yeah, everybody needs somebody sometimes

Don't have to find your own way out
You gotta voice, let it be heard
Just when it feels you're on a dead end road
There's always somewhere left to turn

So don't give up now
You're so close to a brand new day
Yes, you are and if you just can bear to be alone
I'll stay

Cause everybody needs somebody sometimes
Yeah, everybody needs somebody sometimes

Well, maybe I been too caught up to see
What you've been going through and all that I can say is

Oooo, yeah

And everybody needs somebody sometimes
Yeah, everybody needs somebody sometimes
Everybody needs somebody sometimes
A little left to save
Everybody needs somebody sometimes
Gotta have someone beside you
Gotta have someone beside you
Yes, ya do, yes, ya do
Everybody, everybody needs somebody sometimes

Video courtesy of YouTube

Lyrics courtesy of AZ Lyrics

Status Update

I think maybe my eyes are opening for the first time...Do I even want to try and get confirmation for what I am thinking? Woke up this morning to a dream that I can only describe as my sub-concious telling me something that I think I have always known but did not want to admit. How could I be so wrong about the kind of person I thought you were? Maybe I am jumping to conclusions but I hope it is just my head telling my heart that it has to take the blinders off...

Maybe this goodbye will also be a good riddance. Fingers crossed...

Status Update

Time to move on
Time to move past the hurt
Time to understand you will never know why or why not
Time to realize the greatness you have inside you
Time to realize that things won't change
Time to realize that he is the one missing out
Time to stop wondering what he is doing when he isn't with you
Time to stop caring about it
Time to quit allowing the tears, he isn't worth it
Time to realize that you are better than what you are getting
Time to make a stand
Time to say goodbye....