What's Up? - Status Report

So I thought it was time to catch up on the blog with everything that I have been doing lately. Last night I had a bit of a scare because my friend Cari texted me and asked why I took my blog down - it was missing! Thankfully this morning order has been restored.

On the 4th of July I ran and completed my first Peachtree Road Race. OK, so I didn't really run all the way, but I now have a new goal in mind next year for the time I want and I will be training differently. I am so glad I did it, it is something that I have wanted to do since high school but have always been afraid. Felt good to set a goal and meet it even though I had some fears.

Waiting to start:



Celebratory beer:



All in all, I had a fantastic holiday weekend. Saturday my friend Sarah and I met some guys at my pool and ended up hanging out with them all day and night. Not really prospects as two of them live down south and also the three of them talked to me about this lame 'relationship' that I am having still with John. My favorite part was when Tony told me that I was way to 'beautiful, smart and amazing' to be hung up on someone who obviously has their own issues that has nothing to do with me.

One of the guys in my new float:


All the support from them and also completing a goal I have had for so many years is really helping me to turn the corner on this John stuff for good. I was already in the frame of mind that our whiskey tasting plans this Friday would mark the end of it for me. This past weekend just reinforced it. At this point, I wonder if I even want to be friends with him, I know that it is time to really move on and I don't need to be concentrating any of my energy in that direction. Word!

Hopefully everyone had a wonderful time celebrating our independence and Angela's birthday!

Will try to update after Friday night if not before!

xoxo,

K

Status Report

It is amazing the perspective you can get on a past relationship and your feelings when you spend time around someone who really finds you amazing. Yesterday I went to the Braves game with Sam. I have known Sam for over 15 years, the first 10 years we were very good friends and then when I got back from LA, we decided to start dating. Needless to say, there were many issues and in the end we really just didn't work out.

It has been a little difficult the last 2.5 years to keep our friendship intact. I know I had unresolved feelings, some of them thinking that maybe he was my last chance. One good thing that has come out of the relationship with John is that I realized I really didn't have romantic feelings for Sam and at that same time he contacted me and said he really missed our friendship.

Anyway, I know that I am going around my ass to get to my elbow here, but I wanted to give a little bit back story.

So, yesterday he picked me up and we headed to Turner Field. At first there was a little bit of awkwardness because we had not seen each other in about a year. However, we soon fell into very easy communication. It is amazing how much Sam likes to build me up. From telling me how amazing I look, to knowing exactly what type of music I like, etc.

With John, I always felt like he was judging me in a negative way. Like I wasn't good enough from him - now I just realize that he was not good enough for me. The last couple of weeks have been a real eye opener about the relationship I had with him. We communicate and even over texts, he says things I feel just tear me down a bit. Last night we were texting and I decided to give him a quick call - he sent me straight to voice mail. Seriously, you don't want to have a 5 minute conversation about scotch, fine.

I woke up this morning with a great sense of release. I think I can say that I am truthfully over wanting anything romantic with John. I feel better than I have in a LONG time, we are talking years. I have no regrets at all, because I can honestly say so many good things came out of the relationship.

Upward and onward folks!