It's a New Day, but it still hurts...

So I finally did it, I think I might have known how Custer felt...

Last night I decided that I was going to be disappointed for the last time. All of his selfishness is no longer my problem. How did I allow myself to look past all of the bad things about this man? Why did I allow myself to think I was in love with someone who clearly isn't the right fit for me?

Doesn't mean that it hurts any less today though.

It was nice to wake up and know that something was gone from my life that had been making me miserable more than it was being enjoyable. That said, when it was enjoyable, it was damn enjoyable.

Now I know I just need to move forward and I can't allow myself to go backwards again. I didn't realize how much of my self respect I would gain back by uttering these 2 simple words: Get Out.

I even deleted our Streak for the Cash group. Next up is the phone number and the texts, eventually the email. I gave him back everything that he ever gave to me, no sense in having it around the house to remind me.

Fingers crossed I meet a good man that realizes what he has in front of him.

Why Did I Decide to Start This????

I am sure all of you out there are wondering why I decided to start a second blog when I don't even post on my first. I am here to answer that question and it will be in at least 2 parts, but let's see what happens....

1. I recently got out of a relationship that I ended because I wasn't getting what I needed. I will explore a few things:

a. Why I thought maybe things were heading in the right direction (why I let my heart

lead even when my head didn't want to follow)

b. The delusional fantasies I have created in which the man realizes he can't live without

having me in his life.

and

2. Why women think that their lives and romances are going to be like those fantastic romantic comedies we have all watched and imagined ourselves living out in real life.

This includes:

a. Pretty Woman (without the hooker storyline - at least for me)

b. Some Kind Of Wonderful (if you let if free...)

c. The Family Stone (maybe I am with the wrong brother)

d. And many, many more...

I want this to be a space where we can all share our stories, lament, understand and also realize that we are amazing people that are worth having our happy endings.

Here is to love, life and happiness - with a little delusion.

xoxo,

Katie