Delusional Deep Thoughts...Not by Jack Handy

This week I was lucky to be introduced to a new band called The Civil Wars (Ironically, they released the album on the anniversary of the start of the Civil War - branding at its best peeps!).

I like to put my iTunes on recently added and just let it run through all of the new music I have recently purchased, ripped, borrowed from someone else...This morning 'I Want You Back' by The Civil Wars came on and immediately I started listening to the lyrics...

When I had you to myself
I didn't want you around
Those pretty faces always made you stand out in a crowd
But someone picked you from the bunch
One glance was all it took
Now it's much too late for me to go and take a second look

Oh baby give me one more chance
Won't you please let me in your heart
Oh darling I was blind to let you go
Now that I see you in his arms
I want you back
I want you back
I want you back

Trying to live without your love
Is like one long sleepless night
Let me show you boy
That I really know, I know wrong from right
Cause every street you're walking on
You leave tear stains on the ground
Follow boy, I didn't even want
Didn't even want you around

Oh baby give me one more chance
To show you I love you
Won't you please let me in your heart
Oh darling I was blind to let you go
Let you go baby
Now that I see you in his arms
Oh now that I see you in his arms
I want you back
I want you back
I want you back

Well - if this isn't the things that everyone woman has wanted a man to say to them after I break up - I would be amazed...

Here it is for your listening pleasure!

I Should Take My Own Advice

I just said this to a good friend regarding a horrible relationship that she has been in for 3 years. And I use 'being in the relationship' lightly...

"None of the past matters
None of it is ever going to be changed
You just have to realize you need to move on to a new future
And unfortunately it won't be with him"

I think I need to live by my own sage advice. Today I have had a pretty horrific day at the office, just issues popping up left and right. Then my sister pretty much lit into my over IM from something that was 6 months ago - really?

Naturally it made me think how nice it would have been to have John come over to coddle me. How it was too bad we weren't dating anymore. What a waste of a thought...

Why Did I Decide to Start This????

I am sure all of you out there are wondering why I decided to start a second blog when I don't even post on my first. I am here to answer that question and it will be in at least 2 parts, but let's see what happens....

1. I recently got out of a relationship that I ended because I wasn't getting what I needed. I will explore a few things:

a. Why I thought maybe things were heading in the right direction (why I let my heart

lead even when my head didn't want to follow)

b. The delusional fantasies I have created in which the man realizes he can't live without

having me in his life.

and

2. Why women think that their lives and romances are going to be like those fantastic romantic comedies we have all watched and imagined ourselves living out in real life.

This includes:

a. Pretty Woman (without the hooker storyline - at least for me)

b. Some Kind Of Wonderful (if you let if free...)

c. The Family Stone (maybe I am with the wrong brother)

d. And many, many more...

I want this to be a space where we can all share our stories, lament, understand and also realize that we are amazing people that are worth having our happy endings.

Here is to love, life and happiness - with a little delusion.

xoxo,

Katie