What a Difference a Year Makes

I couldn't help but think about John last night and what a difference a year makes in your life. Last year at this time we were just starting our romantic relationship after a few months of being friends. I stupidly thought that I had finally met someone that 'completed' me. So many of the same interests but yet was able to teach me about things I didn't know - I loved being challenged mentally by him. Our long conversations about politics and finance or just the random things I knew that I could teach him.

He actually drove all night on Thanksgiving so that he could be home to see me for less than 24 hours before he went on a trip to Costa Rica. Man, life was so exciting. What is so confusing to me, after those first few months, I could see the love grow in his eyes and by the way he touched me. Of course, I also could see the walls that he was putting up between us so that he wouldn't get too close.

I remember right before our relationship ended the first time (yep, I will never again allow myself to be able to say 'ended the first time,' ladies there is a reason there was a first time, don't let there be a second) where he was mentioning buying some furniture for a spare room. I made a couple suggestions on where to go and he snapped 'I know what I want and I don't need your help.' OK then, this was because the night before he HAD to see me and waited around at work until I was done with my plans. That was too close for comfort. The icing on this story? The day after he snapped at me he called me to ask my opinion on some furniture he was looking at. Really? I thought you didn't need my help a-hole.

I don't know why this still hurts so much. I really thought I was moving past it but lately my dreams have been so full of him. Thankfully I am actually going out and meeting some others so I have distractions. All I can do at this point is let time go by and the healing to be complete. Thankfully I have resisted any urge to contact him and I know it will be difficult on T-day and Christmas but I have to be strong.

As usual, @ihatequotes sums up how I try to look at this situation with a couple of gems:

"Sometimes you have to give up on someone. Everyone in your journey is meant to be in your journey, but not everyone is meant to stay there."

"Stop worrying about people who aren't in your life anymore. There's a good reason they didnt make it. Keep moving!"

"It's better to be single but happy rather than to be with someone who does nothing while you're doing everything."

Also a good person to follow is @GirlPosts

"Sometimes the people you love most leave. They leave because they're scared they might love you back."

"If hes dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go."

"Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you get is so much better than what you had wanted."

Great Quotes

A beautiful woman is a beautiful woman, but a beautiful woman with a brain is an absolutely lethal combination. -Prabal Gurung

Great Celebrity Quote

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain."
-Dolly Parton

What a fantastic way to look at something. If you get everything you want without a little discomfort, do you ever really enjoy it?

Who hasn't ever done this?

"Sometimes, we acted like it wasn't a big deal, when really, it was breaking our hearts."

Thanks @girlsdeals

Currently Listening To...

I'm Satisfied
John Hiatt (video is the Mississppi John Hurt version, you have to find teh John Hiatt, it is amazing...)

Great song and I can't to find a man who feels this way about me. It will happen and this is what we should all aspire to have...



I'm satisfied, tickled too, old enough to marry you
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back
I'm satisfied, tickled too, old enough to marry you
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back

First in the country, then in the town, I'm a total shaker from my navel on down
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back
I'm satisfied, tickled too, old enough to marry you
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back

I pull my dress to my knees. (1) I give my too-ga-loo to who I please
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back
I'm satisfied, tickled too, old enough to marry you
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back

I'm satisfied, tickled too, old enough to marry you
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back
I'm satisfied, tickled too, old enough to marry you
I'm satisfied it's gonna bring you back

Video courtesy of You Tube

Lyrics courtesy of Lyrics Pond

Quotes To Live By

One of my coworkers posted this today and it was too brillant not to share...

Write….or don’t. Just find someway to leave a trace of your red blood cells on something worth picking up.

Learn to love. We are built for it. Even if sometimes it seems like our wires are crossed..

Laugh. Like you left something. A penny or something not worth bending down for but beautiful enough to see the significance in the pin drop..

Cry. As if your tears are run way models. You just dressed them in your life’s work. And you can’t wait to show the world their grace..

Great Quotes

Found another great quote today:

"Being single doesn't mean we're weak. It means we're strong enough to wait for what we deserves."

Thanks @girlsdeals